Swiping Through Uncertainty

So you’ve spent 10 years in a relationship, married for 7, and have an, at the time, 7-year-old.
It’s taken me a while, as I would expect most people to do, when they start wanting to explore the dating life again. More so that it was my ex that had an affair that impacted my mental health about what did I do, am I no longer attractive - I’ve always struggled with self-worth, and this is probably the bit that hit me the most.
Someone that I spent most of my adult life with could betray me, and make me feel so small - If she turned around and said hey.. I’m no longer feeling this, I’d have probably taken it far better.
So you work on yourself, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and take to these dating apps.. Bumble, Tinder, Hinge - all of them give the - this is the app that you’ll delete.. It feels so alien to see a screen of people that you read a well-crafted bios and hobbies list like I love a good Sunday roast - We’re British, doesn’t everyone? Tell me something I don’t know with a selection of well curated pictures.
So you swipe and swipe and swipe - then you think oh.. I’m not getting any matches.
Eventually you match with someone and put effort in to get to know someone, unless I’m just old fashioned, to find that they’re really not ready for a relationship or you’re just different people.
You might meet one person and go out for dinner, you pay and then they ghost you.
So you start thinking of that self worth again, and actually is this something that you want, and start second guessing yourself all over again about dating and why do you do it.
I thought about putting an advert in the paper… Man, 32, seeks love, emotional stability, and someone who doesn’t describe Sunday roasts as a personality trait.
Or you spend a few months talking to someone, falling for them, trusting them, you spend weeks planning to see each other because of their children and only having certain weekends free, being honest with them about everything - to then lose the connection because you’re still waiting for the divorce papers.
I don’t have friends my age, they’re either my ex’s friends so no longer talk to me, or older and not the type of person you take to the pub to meet people, but then I’m not the kind of person that does that but should I be?
How do you hear on TV or social media I met this person and now we’re married and living together from a dating site.
But it does come back to that - is it me… am I the problem….